the chance of life

I sometimes sit and think about the tremendous amount of chance it takes to create us all. The fact of our life is that if a hundred generations ago something went slightly different...we wouldn't exist. If our great great grandmother would not have put out at just the right moment then the little sperm would not have made it to the prize of birth. And that little scenario took place thousands of time to ultimately create me. What are the odds? Is our life just chance? Or did some Creator put the sperm into each and every egg. That is a little too hands on.

And then what of free will? Did someone actually choose you to be born. What are the ramifications to thinking of God as a very, very good sort of guy? Each and every baby that died, God chose them? God chose to make Hitler? He chose to have a thousand chances of life happen to eventually lead to one being born to die?

I do not think God is involved in this world at all really. If there is a after life, I would think he would be more involved there...you know because that would be like his house so he would care what you do there. I don't believe in a devil either. I just find it hard to believe in both. I am a one deity kind of guy. Why would you let someone mess with your children, or even your animals? If it is to "test" us, well that is just dumb. If your God then you should know who is naughty or nice. Hell, Santa Claus can do that. Which is another one I don't believe in.

What if the voyage of the sperm to the egg, which leads us to the transformation into life, is also what life is like. I am thinking maybe we die and cease to exist like the sperm may be thinking once he disappears into the egg. But then somehow we become a human being, who grew like a million times bigger with complex emotions and thoughts. What if when we go into the unknown of death we do get transformed into something else? Like a million times bigger again with REALLY complex thoughts. Yeah....and that is why the universe is expanding. To make room for us.